thisisallaboutmyHEART

here again ..

so dis is my LIFE .

i juz wanna tell u and let u noe dat im both HAPPY and SAD.

and noe wat ?

im still trying to figure out how dat could be :)

im not telling u it is goin to be easy but im telling u its goin to be worth it :)

im still trying to forget wat hurt me in the past 

but

i will never forget wat it had taught me .

i noe i like to pretend dat everythings alright .

i juz want everybody else thinks dat im fine and make me forget for a while dat im not .

i promise to myself dat i wont ever regret anything dat had happen in my past or my future

coz i noe one day it is exactly wat i wanted .

i wont rush into falling in love coz even in fairy tales the happy ending takes places in last pages .

and now ..

everything changes .

i spent my entire childhood wishing dat i was OLDER and now im older and dis sh**t is suck .

im not gonna promise to u dat i will not disappointed u bcoz at the same point i will.

wat is important is..

i wont go away from u ..

i wont escape from u ..

i wont leave u 

juz bcoz u are disappointed .

dat the meaning of my LOVE .

im not expect to find the rite sumone which is so PERFECT .

coz i noe who i am..

wat matters to me and wat makes my heart happy :)

i cant explain how painful it is to wait for sumthing dat NEVER COMES and NEVER HAPPEN .

some day i wish things had turned out differently .

i still have so many words to say 

but

i had no COURAGE .